….ouch!..break nah kami ni paul

Posted on December 16th, 2008 in Uncategorized by asternoelyn

hours session//sawing pag-ibig??

Haha. So aian ang mga biktima kong tissue kagabi. Hindi crumpled masayado. Sa sipon ko kasi ginamit yan! Haha! Oh well.
Hindi ko maexplain. Ansakit o ang kati ng lalamunan ko. Pakamot :)) Haha.
Chia, sorry I had my session. Pero ansarap! 3 hours. Shitty. Haha. Namamaga yung mata ko ngayon. Wala akong load di ako makapagtext! Haha!
Yes, to start with my story. Cause? Secret. Haha. Oh well, at least. Yes, of course it was painful. But I have no regrets :)) Really :) When I woke up this morning, 10 am, super wala akong gana. Wala kong gana bumangon at kumain. Tapos ayun, I decided. “Alexi, ayusin mo buhay mo. Haha.” Yes, accepted it already :)
Card day tomorrow. I’m nervous with Bio and AP. Goodluck to me. Sana matuloy ang date namin ni Starr bukas. Haha.
Sawing pag-ibig, wtf? Haha. Galing kei Starr! Haha. Bigla kasi ako mei naalala kanina. Ayan, magkekwento ako. I was still youunger. Tapos mei katext akong guy. Oo, guy talaga. Sa nagbabasa, maniwala ka naman. Haha. Tapos, yes, we really did not know each other. Only by names and schools. Ayun, tapos, haha. Natatawa ko. Tinanong niya ko kung pwede manligaw. Siyempre, ako ay bata pa kaya ako ay hindi pumayag. Haha. I liked him. Di niya alam yun. Pero nawalan kami ng communication. Haha.
Anyway, ang aming chat ni yna :D
yna: ui!\
yna: sm us!
lexi calda: no money mo!
lexi calda: *me
yna: whaha..aus lng un!..window shopping us
lexi calda: panu pagkain??
yna: window tasting..haha…rich kya you!! pno nmn you mwwlan ng money??!!
lexi calda: gagu.
lexi calda: haha!
lexi calda: i dnt have money!
lexi calda: only barya2!
yna: un!…kya yan!..mkakasurvive us!
lexi calda: pano yun?
yna: ewan!
yna: you make ipon-ipon!
yna: sbhin mo din kei alyssa!
yna: tsaka s iba p!
lexi calda: eh i dnt have baon to make ipon,
yna: wahha!..kya yan!
lexi calda: san ako kukuha ng pera?
yna: ewan!..aq rin eh..wlang pera
lexi calda: ngek!
lexi calda: nice one
yna: :))
yna: sma mo q s hk!!
lexi calda: libre lang yun eh
yna: wahaha….libre mo q!
yna: sma mo me!
lexi calda: sa loob ka ng bagahe.
lexi calda: haha
yna: haha..xur!
lexi calda: wag na pala
yna: ehh..
lexi calda: bbigat!
Window tasting? Anu yun iluluwa yung food? Hahaha!
Patama naman yung mga kanta sa TV. Magbalik. Haha.
Mahalin mo nalang kahit kunwari,
Dalangin niyang nakatingin sa langit,
Naubos na ang sandali ng buhay niya,
Na parang pelikulang wala namang istorya,
Natapos na ikaw nalang ang bida,
Di mo man lang nasabi na mahal na mahal mo siya.
Yung tita ko nagtext para mang-inggit nung frost blends ng Jollibee. Argh. Ako ay nagccrave. Haha.
Parang ayoko na magbirthday. Sana 21 na!
Mahal na mahal ko si Carmille :) Yun lang ang masasabi ko. Haha :D
Donna at Carmille, maraming salamat sa hindi pag-iwan sa akin :)
Starr, we would always be partners in crime :)
Honey why you’re calling me so late?

…i still believe in love…

Posted on December 16th, 2008 in Uncategorized by asternoelyn
i still believe in love

Even though you are no longer here
there is still something between us
Even though life isn’t fair
I’ll never lose my trust….
Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won’t give up, I won’t stay down
this is what life’s worth living for
I still believe in love

i had finished reading “breaking dawn”..at last!hahaha..ive been busy lately..so i didnt have time to read..well actually im not really busy at all..i am just always in school fixing my clearance and making tambay na rn..hehehe..even though i am suffering a major poverty mode dis sembreak..aus na dn..i cant do anything about it eh…kht na it hurts coz i dont have money na.. wid all that pamashe and stuffs n sgot ko lahat..huhu..i got really shy nung friday when bi told me she will just bring a baon and share daw kme..aun i felt liked i was a “palamunin girl”..haha..o well..tnx to bi..i got to ate lunch..hehe..

i was currently listening to one of the songs in Twilight the movie..which was entitled “Bella’s Lullaby”..oh my gosh! my heart melts in dis song..so nice..hahaha..i really loved senti songs..haha..nwei..me and my ate got so addicted to the song “fall for you by second hand serenade”..everytime we hear it..aun bonggang bongga ang tilian mode naming dlwa..haha.. well sometimes i dream na somebody would sing it to me..wow! sarap cgro nun..if a guy found out and realized that i was the girl for him and he cant find anyone possible for his love except me..shet! kakatunaw ng puso un..hahaha..

anyway..the other night..i called gellie and aun aftr how many months ngkachkhan ulit kme..kktuwa lng..haha..ders dis one ultimate question dat almost everyone asked me..and everytime deyll gonna asked it..i will automatically be SPEECHLESS..as in..im trying to find the answer..but i cant..maybe becoz i dont wanna think about that question coz i dont wanna think about “what if’s” anymore..all i wanna think right now is..”its impossible”..and if ever dat would happened..o well goodluck!!!

Yesterday i went to church again..and wla lng..i just thanked God again for giving me new friends and new people to meet..i just honestly need it right now..and i just really loved having new people in my life..

last night nanaginip ako..im iwd “mommy” [my lola] who passed away last march..l lng.. i just got so touched coz i saw her..and we were crying at my dream and the next thing i know aun i was crying for real..as in live..so when i woke up..aun i prayed for her..somehow i missed her..the woman who loved me so much..ive been her favorite girl sa aming mgkkptd..awww..hope shes happy were she was right now..God is with her..=)

o well obviously..wla na nmn ako mgwa..haha..watched tv.soundtrip.tumunga2…wow in short..wla ka sense2 ang buhay ko ngaun dito s bahay..hahaha..wlang money..wlang kht anu..shocks!hahaha..

“I knew that our time was up on US..Our moment of end was so fast
but the kiss of goodbye always lasts..not even time could fade it away..
but like the wind you said GOODBYE..
and left me alone here to cry..
we shouldn’t have gone our separate ways”

inlove kah bah???

Posted on December 16th, 2008 in Uncategorized by asternoelyn
heheheheheheh read on….

Pakundangan sa mga “in-lab” pero ito ay isang essay na maaring magbago sa pananaw ninyo. Kung gusto niyong manatili sa relasyon…pwede niyong iwasan ang essay na ito. pasensya na, magfa-finals na… kelangan mag-output ng data mula sa memory para magkaroon ng free space pag nagreview na….

THESIS STATEMENT: “LOVE IS A STATE OF MIND”

note: ang limitation ng definition ng love dito ay ung pang-bf-gf lang…ryt?!

Tama po ang nabasa nyo….LOVE…from the mind, hindi sa “heart”. Di kayo maniwala? ganito un…. Kayong mga girls… pag nililigawan kayo, bakit niyo sinsagot guy? Kc mahal nyo? ulul! lasi nakukulitan na kayo… E ARAW-ARAW NIYO BA NAMANG KA-TEXT, KA-CHAT, AT KASAMA, CYEMPRE MAREREALIZE NYO NA HE’S WORTH HAVING AROUND PALA. eventually, at this stage, maiisip nyo na ay, “mahal ko pala siya”… pero ang desisyon bang iyon ay galing sa puso? HINDI!!!! Kaya nga pag tatanungin nyo ang nililigawan nyo, anong sagot niya? “PAG-IISIPAN KO MUNA”…

Kaya kayo mga lalaki, wag lalakE ang ulo pag cnagot na kayo dahil ung “OO” na binigay niya ay hindi ibig sabihin na, “OO, NARAMDAMAN KONG mahal na din kita”, kundi ” oo, naisip ko na masarap ka palang ka-text, ka-chat, at kausap sa maghapon..NXT WEEK KO NA LANG TITINGNAN KUNG TALAGANG MAHAL NGA KITA, baka magsawa ka pa…” Kung halimbawa ba , nakasabay mong manligaw sa kanya ung kababata niya or ung bestfriend nya, sasagutin ka pa kaya niya? ASA KA PA!!!

ETO pa… bakit mas madaling “mahalin” ang gwapo at maganda?
Kasi, kapag gwapo o maganda ang isang tao, mas madaling imaginin na sila ang kasama mo, kayakap mo…kasiping mo… OO, KASIPING…Di ba dun naman ang uwi ng mga “lab-lab ” na sinasabi nyo na yan?! …Ano, napag-isipan nyo na..?

Kayo naman mga guys, paano niyo nalalaman na inlab pala kayo? sasabihin nyo na lang na paggising mo, mahal mo na siya? ULUL!!! Malamang, bago kayo nagising, naisip niyo na mahal mo pala, siya dahil NAPANAGINIPAN MONG KA-SEX MO SIYA…or other events close to it…right?!!!

Siguro nga ay tama si AGENT SMITH, “Love is just a word”…. It has no emotions…only thoughts, imaginations. Bakit ba kung ano-ano ang ginagawa ng taong “in-lab” daw? Sabi nila, ganoon daw talaga ang pag-ibig… NEKNEK!!! Kasi, iniisip nila na under spell nga sila nitong “love” na ito kaya sa tingin nila may karapatan na silang magbaliw-baliwan!parang paglalasing lang yan…PAG LASING KA, PWEDE KA NAMAN MAGING PEACEFUL…DAPAT NGA MA2LOG K NA LANG E, PERO BAKIT MAY MGA NAG-AAMOK PAG LASING? KASI AKALA NILA DAPAT WILD ANG LASING!!! yOU SEE, “LOVE” is like fear…IT’S ALL IN THE MIND!

Bakit inspired ang tao pag “in-lab?” Kasi po, inspiration comes from the mind! Hindi un nararamdaman… INSPIRATION is A MENTAL MOTIVATION.

Pero kung mapilit kayo at gusto niyong ipagpilitan na nararamdaman yang pagmamahal na iyan…cge nga, HOW CAN WE KNOW IF WE ARE ACTUALLY EXPERIENCING TRUE LOVE AND NOT JUST ITS MIND COUNTERPART